Feeling ok

Today is a busy day. I had to stop for a minute and write this though. I will be headed to work to face my fate/loneliness. I try to ignore him or at least keep my back turned but i hear his voice and i suddenly feel light headed and butterflies fill my stomach. I hold it together pretty well during work, but I don't think this facade is going to hold much longer. It's a gorgeous day outside, and I don't want to waste it by being sad today.