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“Table Tennis” by Flying Lotus (feat. Laura Darlington) + Lyrics | jovian phoen:x

This is what I feel like with the 'new' him. Sort of drawn in an odd way.

I feel like...

Modjo Lyrics - Lady (Hear Me Tonight)

This is would I imagine my next love will say to me, is that weird? It's just cut, dry and to the point and a really good song to boot

I'll tumble for ya

I'm sitting here contemplating some things, throwong them around. I've never really done something as big as what I'm thinking of doing. I want to...scratch that am going to (as told to me by someone I know) audition for a part in a show with a tumbling part. I always here "well aren't you to old to do that" "well aren't you too old for skateboarding" (gymnastics, etc). I'm tired of the naysayers and I say shut your face to them. I am going to try, if not for the experience alone. I like tumbling and I love skateboarding. I figure why not do something with it that will be somewhat gratifying and I won't feel like I'm doing it for no reason. Right? After all if you're going to do something...do it for yourself not for others and the recongnition that you may or may not cares...I'll tumble for ya...but I'll tumble for me first.

Still crusing still searching...

So as I'm waiting on the bus that I drive to pick up the after achool bunch. I'm finding that, some days in one aspect..my life sucks....more than most. Why am I still single? Of coarse this now brings to the forefront the whole 'grass is greener' question. It's not so much that I need this yet unfound person to complete me, but more so to enhance my life, I guess is what I'm trying to say. Someone that wants to go cruise around with me, or you know the same stuff. I know he's out there but I don't wanna rush it, ah geez now I sound like a Reader's Digest magazine

Soulful House: Jon Cutler ft. Kemdi - You Groove Me (Osunlade Remix)

Skating keeps me sane

Today is one of those days, where time won't go fast enough. I look around and I see people wearing sweaters and holding hands and it's like "Geez, man rub it in my face already.". Obviously 'the grass is greener' does not always apply but what's wrong with wanting someone to skate with, and point out how lame and overly obnoxious tourists are,or just hang out with and count the stars...you know? I'm not by any means desperate, just perplexed as to what I may be doing wrong that I haven't found my 'makes my heart stop, days worth living, skate partner' yet; because sitting home having a glass of wine in the evening is not the way I want to spend them. I feel like I should complete the look by owning about 4 more cats, getting my name monogrammed on everything, and join a book club or something. Dear life....give me a break already.Let's face it...skating keeps me sane..

Skating is my therapy

I'm sitting here at almost 1:30 in the morning trying to configure voice mail and thinking about how much my job is irritating me. Update, since last June "he" moved back to the place from which he came. I call him periodically (or his mother rather since that's who usually answers the phone.) I now work at a different gym and am having an early mid-life crisis as I do every birthday since about 4 years ago. I am in a job that is just that a 'job'. It is only gratifying on Monday and Wednesdays when I have my team. I am moody all of the time because of this and feel like this job has defined me, and I refuse to let it. I have a new car since some woman on New Year's eve totaled my last car. I have been trying to get things together to go surfing, and I am about to buy new wheels for the longboard because let's face it, longboarding is my therapy. I hate yoga, it's for yuppies, and I can only run so much before I'm utterly and completely bored. I can skate until my legs turn to jello though. I sit here, almost dosing off to sleep wondering why the 'new' crush isn't working out so well and I think comparatively of the black widow or something along those lines. Am I not approachable enough? Ahh, pfft forget that, I'm a cool kid I'm just overthinking things as I do in my typical behavior. I want so much to relax a little (who am I kidding....i need to relax a lot.)and just go skate as much as I can and remember that for now this prison I mean 'job' is just a means to an end and that there is always something cooler out there just waiting. Until then...I'll just skate.